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"Everything is okay in the end... If it's not okay, it's not the end."
即使是雨季，也总会有雨过天晴的一天=）
♥ Monday, September 29, 2008
12:17 AM
More pictures!
Dinner @家园. Yum！=）
trying to feel like an olympian..
Yup that's all so far. Shall post more pictures when I come back from 天津! Its a one day tour organised by the year 2 seniors. 好期待！=D
♥ Sunday, September 28, 2008
9:41 AM
刚吃了大董北京烤鸭。极力推荐！看看那里的蜜瓜。。
我的房间！在挪书桌和床的位置之前。。看到我的HOTPINK毛巾吗？=D
残奥：选手们的毅力，振奋人心。从勺园阳台拍的！
开学典礼：在北京大学体育馆外
开学典礼：在北京大学体育馆内
首都博物馆清朝彩瓷器：好漂亮哦！
首都博物馆辽国公主的冠：帅气十足！
大概只有这样吧， 很多照片都不在我这，请拭目以待！
♥ Saturday, September 27, 2008
8:06 PM
周日，终于等到一个属于自己的一天了！这是九天的忙忙碌碌，真让人喘不过气来。即便如此，也觉得甘之如饴=D有时候忙里偷闲的滋味比整天窝在家里看韩剧好的多。最近一直在忙，也不知道在忙些什么=-=一些有的没的，如庆祝朋友的生日，去买家具，文具及课本书籍等琐碎事情。这么一晃，就晃了十九天了！来看看我如何晃过十九天的。。。
第一天往北大途中。。
陪伴我飘洋过海的行李箱！
闻名全世界的鸟巢！！！竟然就这样滑过我眼前。。昙花一现啊！
雪菜肉丝面，超咸的='(点名：面食快餐，从我住的勺园步行十分钟。看起来不怎样吧。价钱：4元。
再来看看这个。。。
菜名：一塔湖图；由来：塔--博雅塔.湖：未名湖。图：图书馆。
菜色：超大排骨！
价格：未知，因为同学的爸爸请客！应该很贵吧！
♥ Friday, September 19, 2008
7:40 AM
nothing happened much today. Lesson was ok, teacher was abit slow cuz its the international student's class. Btw, I opted to study in the Chinese nationales' class. Its really different. The Koreans really know how to dress up!The highlight today is still food! We went to a Dai3 zu2, abit like thai style restuarant to eat, they had suedo hash browns! very nice! its called tu3 ni2, cuz chinese calls potatoes tu3 dou4. I drank rice wine, like the rest of them, really sweet, think the alcohol content was negligible. Though I got dubbed jiu3 hou4 by them=-=, its seriously like drinking syrup la>< Miss my grandma's rice wine=(
Anyway, there was a mini auditioning for our Chinese fac perf. The IC said we inproved tremendously, though we forgot many lyrics! My keyboard part was ok, nervous as usual! Clammy hands, abit high on adrenaline!
Yeah tts about all for today. Abit sian diao cuz abit affected by some ppl emo-ing, Understandable i guess, but it still doesnt feel good. Not at all=(
♥ Thursday, September 18, 2008
9:45 AM
hai so tired, been sleeping late these few days. Today was the first day of school! Got a big shock when i went into the gu3 wen2 (ancient chinese text) class, cuz they were already doing an assignment. One glannce at the question, I went!@#!#$@#$#$%$%. It was like reading jap hiragana, knowing how to read almost all the words but not knowing what the hell it all means=( The chinese students were so pro. stresses=s Thinking of all the additional reading makes me cringe la.=-=Highlight of the day was bbq chicken wings!! really great. Tasted like the bbq wings opposite TJC! haha happy happy=D
Life here is quite tough cuz of the extra activities and having to take care of myself(which wasnt my responsibility till now!), but its really really enriching. I get to know many ppl, work with them, and despite the occassional tension, they're still really great, responsible, funny and caring people. Everyday's an exciting start for me!
I guess that makes coping with homesickness much, much easier=D
♥ Tuesday, September 16, 2008
10:03 AM
back to civilisation! so much has happened, 6 days felt like a month has jsut passed! All those days of registration, campus tour and shopping(not for clothes yet!) for furniture's really exhausting. School's not started but we're already so busy; busy about the most basic stuff like settling our meals and clothes. I washed my clothes,made my bed, vacummed and wiped the floor! *applause* Even attempted to peel an apple but was stopped by lanfang for fear of my safety.><Aside from all these mundane stuff, the people here are very very varied in character. There are those in the service sector whom has this really "diao" look on thier faces when they serve us, dun even bother to spare a few words for their customers. stingy!Though I'll have to applaude those really nice ones. Then, there's the SSA seniors. Super nice ppl! I cant believe that they actually spent so much of their time on us. Gave them bird nest in return. haha. The year 1s scholars are really nice ppl, 10 of us get along quite well, no lack of funny incidents when we're tgt! but seniors warned us not to be too clique-ish=s
Just for the record, I got constantly mistaken for a Chinese nationale for N number of times!!! Go ahead laugh all you want=-= The young and cute security guard actually thought I'm from China and requested to see my room key upon entrance of the international sutdents' hostel I live in-shao2 yuan2.Joke of the day/week la! Then ONLY a few tourist asked me for directions k! Like maybe I dun scream "FOREIGNER" or maybe even "FRESHIE"??!!! So @#$%^&*(&&^%$##@#$%#$%#%
And once again for the record, I was badly shakened by the state of the public toilets. Cliche as it may seem, you'll really have to experience for yourself how it feels to SQUAT OPPOSITE A WOMAN AND LOOK AT HER PEE/SHIT BECAUSE THERE'S NOT A SINGLE FREAKING DOOR IN AN 8 CUBICLE SQUAT TOILET!!! its totally soft porn man. The whole time I was squatting there, my eyes were busy touring the whole toilet, anywhere besides the woman opposite me. Of course, the very smart khaiqi used her poor bag to shield herself when disposing of her breakfast--peach and apricot yogurt.=((bad tummy day.
weeell, that's about all I can rmb for the past 6 days, now that there's internet in my room, prob it'll be easier to update, so look foward to my next ah tiongish post. My england powderful eh?
♥ Monday, September 8, 2008
9:32 AM
I dont think i can find a title for this entry, will probably be a jumble of thoughts and rantings. So much has happened, and I dont even think i can bear to pen down all that has happened. The past few days seem so much like a dream; I've never thought that I'd empathise with those authors who writes about the passing away of someone. Then, it seemed like something which will never happen to me, it was so far away, so fictional. When it finally happens, its like boom. Then silence. Then its like living in a vacumm, where there's no contact with the outside world, walking on clouds, doing things for the sake of doing things during the funeral, whatever it means to live your life like a dream.I've always thought that I'd have to fly back from China when something happens to my grandma, but the morning they announced that she's not going to make it through the day, I still thought that it wont be that quick. She passed away around 2 hours after I've reached. The sounds, the sights, its still so clear in my mind. Her clogged breathing cuz of the plegm, all the females crying, sniffling away. The cries of desperation of my aunts, my silent tears. rarr tearing now.
I realise that grief's actually not a constant thing. It comes in waves, overpowering waves which leaves someone gasping for breathe, then it goes as quickly as it comes. The next moment, I'm laughing at something ridiculous my sis said. Denial's not foolproof. There times when there're gaps, and reality just pierces right through the heart. Its quick and the pain's shortlived, but it still hurts.
Simple things, just like looking at my grandma's cup at the altar brings back flashes of her in the kitchen, of the black coffee she always drank. The food they offered her at the table, but they missed out her favourite chilli. Minusing the years which I dont remember anything but that I was really cute and crawling around, I've known my grandma since sec 1. Of course she has been living with me since I was born, but those things she has done for us, those small little things, cooking mian4 sian4 for us, the qing1 tang1, all her yummy food.. No more. They become mere specks of memories, and in black and white here. The body is gone, yet the spirit lives on, carried in the form of sons, daughters, grandkids and great grandkids...
Life and death. Its merely a cycle. Ignoring demographics, every life which has passed on signifies the birth of a new one. Somehow, playing with my 7 year old cousin consoles me. The innocence which only a child can have and will eventually lose..Popo will be proud of what her grandkids will become, even if I cant control the future of others, I can control mine.
Its always amazing how life manages to balance out itself. Among the mourning and grief, its always jotted with family bonding, filled with laughter, joy, excitement. Gossiping about a certain cousin, in fact many cousins, doing stupid things, listening to the adults brood and boast about their past glory. It's ironic how a wake can unite the family, even the extended ones, and along the way expose the beauty and ugliness of a character. It really helps in coping with the grief. Life and death, youth and age, beauty and the ugly, grief and happiness.. I've always believed in the yin and yang, haven't I?=)
There're still so many things I've yet to blog about, my writing juices are drying up. Probably means that I'm feeling so much better.Or maybe its just that my tears have dried up and I'm just too emotionally tired..
On a lighter note, I went for a farewell dinner tonight. Finally felt a sense of normality, temporary as it is. Everything just zooms past, I'm flying in one day's time, just when I've yet to accept the current situation. Got a really cute and useful stuff from Shangyi, sth which can be warmed and cooled as and when you like. thanks!
Really touched and grateful for those who sent their condolences and offered a listening ear. Really appreciate it! Though it brought tears to my eyes.LOL. My eyes and nose plumbing seem to be on MC these few days. Come back! Argh=s must be hormones. Sometimes I dont even know why I'm crying, which is really really stupid, cuz my tears are flowing the same time I'm asking myself the reason for crying. its like" why am I crying"*flowssss*"stopcrying! no reason to cry!"*sniffs and wipes away mucus*"why STILL crying?!"*tears continue to flow*=-= so cheap. huh.
yeah, point is, thanks to all of you out there! Dun wan to name la. so mushy. eeee>< Do come send me off on wed 10 sep 0730 terminal 3 if you dun mind missing your beauty sleep. Muahaha.