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"Everything is okay in the end... If it's not okay, it's not the end."
即使是雨季，也总会有雨过天晴的一天=）
♥ Tuesday, February 10, 2009
9:30 AM
人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴圆缺。又自古多情伤离别，更那堪，冷落清秋节。经历过再多的离别，也不会有熟悉的那一天。离别的滋味总是那么的陌生，我一直学习着，让自己适应。离别的恐惧，离别后那片辽阔的天空，百感交集。复杂，矛盾。
也许古人有他们自己的道理，为何把人比喻成月亮？世间一切都有规律，盛极必衰。有悲伤，才能突出欢乐；有离别，才让我们更珍团圆。有孤单的上弦月，才有诗人口中美丽、高贵的满月。
世间一切的一切都是相对的，即离别，也是如此。
♥ Saturday, February 7, 2009
8:20 AM
Been very hardworking blogging recently cuz ppl complaining my blog too dead la. So here's an update...Went to visit my grandpa at the hospital yesterday. He's 93 years old, abit weak recently and fell down in the toilet late in the night, about 2am. Was reading and got a huge shock when I heard the crash. The feeling's really dreadful. Its like you fear what you will see will not be sth pleasant. Scary. Then he had flu, and my mum suspected that he had a minor stroke when all of us wasnt around. Was admitted to Changi hopsital. Doc still diagnosing,things are looking fine and I hope it stays so. Me and sis on the way to see gonggong!
Today, went with sm to meet up with soph at Gelare, gave her bday present! She wasnt feeling good i think, somehow, it made me question the nature of relationships. Cynical eh! But the waffles and ice cream was...BRILLIANT!! REALLY really nice. dun regret all those consumption of fats AT ALL. at least, not yet. ahha. Glad that soph like the (very primary school like) card!
Then went to xyz tyf with simin!! omg so thankful that sm accompanied me la! my savior! haha. tyf was really great, even though it wasnt at any atas restaurant, the gathering itself, with ppl you were close to during your youth, feels really, really great. Its really comfortable, no awkwardness, or very little. Glad I went. Guess soem risks are indeed worth taking. The feeling of just talking, catching up, talking rubbish, laughing like I hvnt in a long time, I'll miss those very much=)
有些时光一旦流失了，就永远不复还。不能抱着遗憾，只能让脸上挂着会心微笑，感叹着青春岁月的单纯与美好。珍惜现在吧，活在现在吧！
怎么总无法摆脱阴影，心，又动摇了。抽刀断水水更流，借酒消愁愁更愁。总让我体会到了。。。
♥ Thursday, February 5, 2009
9:14 PM
Been watching this korean drama, Worlds Within. Style is like Grey's Anatomy, with a narrative throughout the episode, reflecting on his/ her life. Just that its a show about the nature of dramas. Reminds me of Shakespeare reflecting on his plays in The Tempest.Very fresh perspective.The episode Im watching now is titled Whiteout. 雪盲-在暴风雪中因白光反射而丧失方向感，甚至失明。不知自己是否会遇到这么一天？
但，即使遇到了，暴风雪也总有息怒的一天吧。甚至暴风雪后，大地经过白雪的洗礼，会更加洁白，干净吧。
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4:50 AM
First time blogging since I came back. It seems like only yesterday that I touched down, everything seems so surreal, like a blur. The feeling's rather disturbing, I cant find a good analogy for it, but its like just when I am about to settle down comfortably to this lifestyle, the realisation that I'm leaving in 6 days' time hits me. Hard in the face. Then its back to my isolated tiny little room. Perhaps 'tis one of the things that I suddenly realise I miss when Im in China.I guess Im a little claustrophobic in that sense. And that there's always someone in the house, the background noises became so familiar; even the whirling of the ceiling fan, the ticking of my room's clock ( come to think of it, its 10 years old already><), the noisy kids at the playground, my grandpa's constant demands for food.
I guess its the sense of familiarity, the comfort of being back at where I know my standing and place, aka my comfort zone.
Perhaps my room in China will eventually become my second home, where I slowly build my sense of identity. The pictures, the books, the clothes, even the food! The empty room feels just like me when I reached China, the whole new me where no body knows me, where I start to learn things about myself. I imagine the countless possibilities and oppurtunities. Its a journey of self-discovery. Never have I ever, ever thought that I would be in a foreign country by myself, travelling by bus and train to find sophia at silk street. Then staying a night there with her! When Soph's mum asked me if I needed to inform any one, the realisation that only I am responsible for my own actions, that I explain only to myself got to me. Then again, I had to tell my roommate Kaili that I wasnt going back, rather equivalent to family, i guess=)
No man is an island, a life without interation with others is not a life worth living at all. Its difficult, knowing that opening up to others means risking being hurt. But I think I would regret more if I hadnt given myself the chance to love and be loved=)
6 more days, and its back to school!